Update of sorts on me

So thought I would jump on here and give ya an update on my health, as some have asked how I am doing. 

I have an appointment scheduled the 24th of this month to see one of my Cardiologists... 
I know one thing for certain will be medication adjustments, and talk over how I have been since my surgery, and possibly more tests.. 

Here is one of my prayer requests regarding this: We have NO Insurance and are self pay on EVERYTHING from medication to Dr's to testing... 

To do the test repeats that might want to be done will cost into the THOUSANDS, and we do not have that..
I know GOD does and am really not worried about it, but if you would just pray that God would give us wisdom, and give my DR's wisdom. 
There are no procedures they are willing to do at this point due to the position of where the problem is on the left side of my heart. 
If you remember after the surgery us telling you how the DR said, unless I go into cardiac arrest, and am already at risk of dying, he will NOT touch it. It is to life threatening. I will have to just live with this.. And by Gods grace, I have been and will until I am healed... 
I have no doubt at all God will heal me when HE is ready.

God has been in charge of all of this from the start, this I DO NOT doubt.. And I know HE STILL IS!! 

I am human, and the pain gets on my nerves at times, not breathing well because at resting my heart rate is still at 130 beats per min. ( all you medical professionals know what that means) and I do NOT enjoy sitting on my duff and only moving when necessary( almost feels like bed rest..lol) 

I do so appreciate the prayers I know you all are already praying for my family and I... 
The Lord likes to nudge me out of my comfort zone once in awhile, thus the public report. 

Next prayer request would be, for my back. 
Specifically the pain as a result of the tumor on my spine( actually not on it, but wrapped around it) 

Spoke with my Spinal Specialist office yesterday, and due to the delicate location of the tumor, unless it turns into cancer, or becomes life threatening( go paralyzed, and loose ability to control body function) I am a none surgical candidate.   

SO, all of that to say, GOD is SOOOO good to me....
no I am nor have I ever been through what some of you have...
but with the trials I have been through,
God has SHOWED up in a BIG way and has comforted me, kept me, sustained me, encouraged me, carried me, and is SO SO REAL to me. I love HIM so much.

He has encouraged my family through this, brought us all closer to the Lord.
Steve has been amazing, our girls  have been amazing.

The Lord brought to my mind one day, what if we did not have these trials in our life, would the girls still know how to stop in the middle of something and in an instant enter the very Throne Room of Grace on behalf of someone? Meaning, they have learned through this the power of prayer. 

There have been many times here at home, we did not have time to stop and call for prayer from someone else, it was urgent and just us here in the house. 
I know the power, I FELT IT when they circle around me, linking hands, and holding on to me, and each precious girl goes before their LORD on my behalf. To SEE before their own eyes before the last prayer was done, my heart just settle right down,
and The Holy Spirit flood our lil home with HIS mighty presence.. 
IT IS REAL!!

Would I be in such close commune with my Savior if not for these trials? 
To be in a "prayer without ceasing" kind of life, brings so many joys, peace that passes all of my understanding, make the burden to pray for friends and family that NEED the Lord even more real, because I do know how fragile life is. 

It can be over in an instant... 

Do you know where you would go if that happened?

To watch The Lord lead my husband and grow him through all of this and the many other trials that life brings each of us, has been more than I know how to put into words at this moment. 

I am so thankful for  a husband that will go before God and pray over me at a moments notice.
I can call him at work and he will stop whatever he is doing and pray for me. 

So all that to say, I am thankful for the blessings that have come from these trials,
I am thankful for the hope, the promise that one day we will ALL have a brand new body. 
No more tears, no more pain, no more sorrow.. 

IT WILL BE WORTH IT ALL!!!! 

And I KNOW HE hears each one of our prayers. 

Oh I have so much to learn, I need more of Jesus, I yearn for more of HIM and less of me. 
I want to please my Savior. 

I never want to face life without HIM again. 

Don't believe the lie the enemy of our soul tells us...
he is out to ruin our lives.. 

MY KING JESUS is out to SAVE our lives.. 
and make it into the beautiful plan HE has had 
from before the very foundations of the world was ever formed.

PRAISE YOU KING JESUS!!!!!
I love you, I adore you, ALL honor and glory belongs to you!!

So glad to have a FATHER in charge of it all!!

Trust everyone has a Blessed Lords day!!!

THANK YOU again for all the prayers.. 
We do pray for all of you that we  both know and do not know!!