Do I still have a Blog??

I am a woman of many words.. It's my personality (as most of you know) 

I have found myself very quiet in spirit over these past few years but more so in the past 8 months. 

I lost my ability to write (something I also did very often) it just wouldn't come out. 

Shawna Wright is not someone I know from long ago but through the journey of her dear husband making his journey to be with Jesus. Through that we became friends through Facebook. 

I also cut my circle VERY close for these past 8 months but I kept her close. She has been such an inspiration to me in so many ways. I have followed her not just on Facebook but her blog as well. She has inspired me to have the courage to do this again. 

I have documented more of this journey than I realized. It's just not all in one spot. I have many journals and this is my second blog(shut down the first one). 

By nature I am a very outgoing person, and what you see is what you get. However I'm also very sensitive. I know this may come as a surprise to some that think they know me well. I take things to heart and have a life motto; I love much, hurt much, give much, laugh much. I'm an open book.. That isn't always a good thing. Yet it's who I am and I am not going to let life change me or people change me. However I also love people and so I do care about others. I wouldn't want to hurt you for anything in the world and will go out of my way to make sure I don't. I'm learning it's my kind that end up hurt more often than not. 

Wow this is a raw unedited post from last fall. I decided to share it with y'all! 

Here is the video I said I would post

It's worth the 7 mins!! I pray it blesses your heart! 

http://youtu.be/8xtv3uUQJPk

Late night ramblings

It's 3am... 

SVTs doing its thang.... 

Night Nurse just gave me meds (my dearest Shania) she helped me get set up at my craft table, knowing I probably will only last about an hour tops maybe & 

will get me up & move me to the chair of my choice.

 I'm reflecting on how faithful God is in our life, my life. 

Here we are a week & a half until Shania graduates H.S..

 She bought her own formal gown for her graduation&ashes looks AMAZING in it! 

I would love to post a front view but want to save the surprise until the night of the ceremony. =) 

 my dear Mother and Kelsey went with her to pick it up last night. 

I'm amazed how the Lord is helping me not to fall into a feel sorry for myself routine over not being there for the whole process. 6 years ago my world would of fallen apart & everyone would of heard about it, for real. 

But God has and is teaching me so much these past five years on this journey. 

It's actually the EXACT phrase/title I wrote in a journal some few years back, 

as the theme of a mid-year AFHE Conf where Linda Crosby was the guest speaker.

 "Trust God to fill in the gaps" I might be off in exact wording now that I think about it but.. 

That's what I've been learning. 

Trust!

 Lean!

 Release!

 Believe! 

And here we are, graduation time WITH HONORS,

 and I couldn't tell you hardly a single thing or reason on earth it happened. 

But I can tell you a HEAVENLY one. GOD FILLED IN THE GAP! 

Just like He promised. 

Wow.. Sat down here feeling a bit worn down...

 Now my heart is truly over flowing with thanksgiving & praise to my JESUS!! 

Don't deserve a single bit of this life,

 but He is helping me to live the journey He has lovingly placed me on.

 No mistake about it. 

And as I sat here to write, JESUS has started bringing me out of the SVT's!!! 

I love You JESUS! 

I'm going to post a video that is old but so rich & encouraging. If you want to be blessed, take a listen!