When I am in trouble, I know my case will be heard!!!

Hello all, 

Shew this has been a long, long, long, long , few weeks.
 Thank you all for praying , we really appreciate it so very much. 
Have had moments that I thought, this was it... 
but Jesus has walked me through that valley once again and I am still here.
I am tired, I am human...
 but I trust my God and feel at perfect peace. 
Kaity said it best after praying for me, she said
 " Jesus knows our feelings towards you and daddy" 
As if to say... Jesus knows, so He will fix this when He is ready to and we believe He will.
Shania told me around 5am yesterday morning after another what we call 'episodes" that this has taught her the power of prayer and what true faith really means.
Kelsey is our deep thinker and will sit without saying a word and  just pray for me for hours..
I am not saying these things to brag on anyone of us... but to give GOD all the glory!!

We could not make it without HIM.
 His promises are true, even if He chooses to take me home to Glory.. 
They are still true!!!
I know lots of you do not get what is going on, that is OK.
 Leave it in Gods hands and just pray for us if you feel led to do so.
We do not want any sympathy, and I mean that... 
If you could spend one week in our home and watch first hand the miracles He performs in our life. 
To instantly feel the Holy Spirit in the midst... brings peace that passes our understanding.
God has not forgotten us, nor is He punishing us... 
We believe this reaches beyond these walls out into the world as God wants it to. 
He has worked on us and is molding us.. 
I am so thankful for what this journey has taught us and still is.
I would never say I regret, or wish it hadn't happened. 
I have seen first hand the situations the Lord has protected me from because of having this problem.
We have a system in our home when I get bad.
 Prayer first, music next.. and if I have even a faint breath to spare... I sing praise to Jesus and sit in awe as He works on my heart in those moments... 
He has a reason for letting it last,
 and a reason for having mercy and taking it away immediately.  
I am human and so I have been working on my funeral plans, 
hey good time to just do it get it over with and out of the way.. 
But what I want the girls to learn most from this is.. DO NOT FEAR!!! 
If it was important enough for GOD to place that in the Bible 365 times....
 I say it matters!!
Fear means we do not trust...
Concern is okay..
 and I would hope for concern form those I love and love me... 
but not fear!!
Steve said when I slipped off to sleep
 ( due to BP dropping so very low, and HR having been extremely high)  
He said I went into such a peaceful sleep and that is GOD right there!!!!

Like I said around 5am, having battled this for SO MANY DAYS... 
I was beyond tired... and so were everyone else.. 
I picked up my cell and was going to put a call into my DR, 
but I did not know what he could do because we are at a stand still... 
They are surprised I am still living, and can not find an answer, and want to just start poking around in my heart burning this out and that out to see if I would still live and hope that might help... 
We DISAGREE!!!
So I hung up right as my DR was answering his Cell phone.. but I was hanging up.. and I felt the Lord check me, to not call back... 
So that door might be closed.. that means God has another plan, a greater  yes, and is working EVERYTHING out for my good!!!!!

This afternoon God did an amazing thing... My Blood Pressure went to a PERFECT reading for the first time in I can not tell you how long... And briefly my heart rate did too...
Hey that is hope right there folks.. at its finest. 
God is in control.... He never gives us more than we can bear, even when it does feel like it.
He gives us a break before the next storm...
These storms are meant to teach us, draw us closer to HIM!!!

So after everyone felt comfortable to go to bed and leave me alone 
( having made me promise to come get them if I got feeling really bad again) 
The Lord gave me another answer to prayer... 
He helped me to work on some Bible Study homework for the
 "Believing GOD" study I am doing. 
Each days homework takes about an hour and I have not been able to do that...

 BUT GOD!!

GOD IS AMAZING!!!! 

Bottom line... We better know all is well between the Savior and us!!
And serve HIM our of love and adoration for who HE is, not for what HE does!!!!

He's still working on me, 
to make me what I ought to be,
took Him just a week to make the moon and the stars.......
How loving and patient He must be...
He's still working on me!!!


Listen to the Second verse ... That is my verse especially!!

Lord give me grace

I do not want to complain... have no reason.... however I am human and this is my blog so... 

I wish our schedule was back on track like I would like it to be. 
Wish .... 
ya know I am stopping there... 
Instead..

Thank You Lord, for helping me this week... 
Thank You Lord, for friends that are coming to visit us tonight!!
Thank You Lord, for a husband whom I adore and cherish, who spoils me rotten, and always puts his family first.
Thank You Lord, for helping him to be the spiritual leader of our home, and being the father You created him to be.
Thank You Lord, we have a job and a nice home.
Thank You Lord, our bills are paid, we have food on the table and a good place to sleep.
Thank You Lord for our three beautiful girls that we do not deserve.. We love them each, and are so Blessed You loaned them to us to raise for YOUR glory!!
Thank You Lord, for allowing us this awesome journey of home-education and the close bond it creates.
But Lord, most of all... 

Thank You for saving me,
 sanctifying,
 and keeping me. 
I pray Your will be done in our home and in our lives. 
I pray we can be Your hands and feet, and remember...
 You reached WAY down for me, 
set people in my path to speak words of truth in love
 even when I did not want to hear it. 
Bless those precious people today,
 protect them,
 encourage them,
 and help them along this way.
Bless those whom can not forgive,
 and Lord help me to remember why I forgive... 
it is because You first forgave me, 
and that is what Mercy and Grace is all about!!!

                     I Love You Father!!! 
                     I Love You Jesus!!!! 
                     I Need You Holy Spirit!!

Love, Your ever learning, 
a work in progress, 
homeward bound daughter. 

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No Matter what... My life is in YOUR hands Jesus!!

What a DAY, what a MOMENT!!

This has been a pretty rough week... 
Monday night spent hours waiting to be seen in the ER
( DR sent me in) and that scene is for an entire different post!! 

I had a great Nurse and DR for which I am thankful! 
We had been talking about personal things on and off over the hours and it was finally time for me to GO HOME!!
 We were talking about how crazy this world has gotten... ect.. Something he said triggered me to share how God has been taking care of us through this journey of life, not just with this heart issue, but through many other trials. 
I said something to the effect of I couldn't wait to go to Heaven, what a wonderful day that was going to be.
 He got real serious and proceeded to share how he had lost his dad 17 years ago, we shared we lost Steve's dad in 2009. 
He said his dad had an extra surprise waiting in Heaven when he got there... 
I said yes meeting Jesus first and all the loved ones..
And how I was sure Daddy was surprised to meet nine of his grand-babies from his youngest sons family!!!
He turned away and was choking back a few tears and proceeded to share how he had encouraged and helped his girlfriend to get an abortion when he was only thirteen years old. 
We didn't say a word.. 
He continued on to share that memory and finished with he was sure the baby was in Heaven. 
We said oh for sure.. 
The Lord prompted me to say that God was a forgiving God and a God of second chances.. 
yes it was wrong, but I was sure God would like to talk it over with him. 
He surprisingly responded well to that and we were on our way.

We never know why God allows things, but one thing I am sure of. He wants to use us and His word says " to be ready to give an answer of the hope that is within us"

On the way out towards the car the triage nurse that had been kinda rude when I first came in, met us at the door and stopped us before we left trying to give more ideas on where to go for help to solve this problem with the elctrophysiology thing going on. 
I reminded him from what I had first told him earlier that night... 
God was in control, I am not panicked, I have a great earthly DR, but an even GREATER PHYSICIAN on my case.. GOD!!
He just smiled and wished us well..
 He had been sitting at the computer looking through my patient history while I was in the back being treated.. 
It had stuck in his mind for some reason
( there shouldn't of been any room in his mind to remember me, from how busy it was) 

That may be small to you.. but to me that is a GOD moment.. 

Anyway, wanted to share that portion of our Monday evening along with this song that has been in my heart since I heard it last week! 

It's in the Savior's Hands!!

Recovering

Just wanted to jump on here real quick to say hello, and that we will get pictures up as soon as we can. It has been a crazy busy few weeks... but good!

   Thank the Lord for helping us through the convention and Blessing on Kelsey's 8th Grade graduation.
The Good Lord answered so many prayers, and made so many things possible as only HE can. We are so so very thankful for our Jesus!!!

  Mother had surgery Tuesday morning and came through that okay no complications and is recovering very good here at home with us. 
We are doing our best to love on her and spend as much time together as we can. Has been a long time since we have been able to spend this much time together.. It is very nice!!

We are doing okay, tired, and fighting a physical battle but again, Jesus is helping and just trusting Him to keep on doing what only He can do!

Sad to see Steve return to work tomorrow, his vacation time went by so fast.. We did not have an actual vacation, was more running and things.. but so thankful for a husband who is willing to spend the time he had to take off to get things done. 
I know the Lord will bless him!!! 

God is so very good. So thankful to serve a BIG GOD who is worthy of everything we have to give him.. ALL OF IT!!! 

Will get back on at some point for more details and sharing pictures. 
   
          Thank you for your prayers, we are so thankful for them!!!

KEEP THEM COMING!!