When I am in trouble, I know my case will be heard!!!

Hello all, 

Shew this has been a long, long, long, long , few weeks.
 Thank you all for praying , we really appreciate it so very much. 
Have had moments that I thought, this was it... 
but Jesus has walked me through that valley once again and I am still here.
I am tired, I am human...
 but I trust my God and feel at perfect peace. 
Kaity said it best after praying for me, she said
 " Jesus knows our feelings towards you and daddy" 
As if to say... Jesus knows, so He will fix this when He is ready to and we believe He will.
Shania told me around 5am yesterday morning after another what we call 'episodes" that this has taught her the power of prayer and what true faith really means.
Kelsey is our deep thinker and will sit without saying a word and  just pray for me for hours..
I am not saying these things to brag on anyone of us... but to give GOD all the glory!!

We could not make it without HIM.
 His promises are true, even if He chooses to take me home to Glory.. 
They are still true!!!
I know lots of you do not get what is going on, that is OK.
 Leave it in Gods hands and just pray for us if you feel led to do so.
We do not want any sympathy, and I mean that... 
If you could spend one week in our home and watch first hand the miracles He performs in our life. 
To instantly feel the Holy Spirit in the midst... brings peace that passes our understanding.
God has not forgotten us, nor is He punishing us... 
We believe this reaches beyond these walls out into the world as God wants it to. 
He has worked on us and is molding us.. 
I am so thankful for what this journey has taught us and still is.
I would never say I regret, or wish it hadn't happened. 
I have seen first hand the situations the Lord has protected me from because of having this problem.
We have a system in our home when I get bad.
 Prayer first, music next.. and if I have even a faint breath to spare... I sing praise to Jesus and sit in awe as He works on my heart in those moments... 
He has a reason for letting it last,
 and a reason for having mercy and taking it away immediately.  
I am human and so I have been working on my funeral plans, 
hey good time to just do it get it over with and out of the way.. 
But what I want the girls to learn most from this is.. DO NOT FEAR!!! 
If it was important enough for GOD to place that in the Bible 365 times....
 I say it matters!!
Fear means we do not trust...
Concern is okay..
 and I would hope for concern form those I love and love me... 
but not fear!!
Steve said when I slipped off to sleep
 ( due to BP dropping so very low, and HR having been extremely high)  
He said I went into such a peaceful sleep and that is GOD right there!!!!

Like I said around 5am, having battled this for SO MANY DAYS... 
I was beyond tired... and so were everyone else.. 
I picked up my cell and was going to put a call into my DR, 
but I did not know what he could do because we are at a stand still... 
They are surprised I am still living, and can not find an answer, and want to just start poking around in my heart burning this out and that out to see if I would still live and hope that might help... 
We DISAGREE!!!
So I hung up right as my DR was answering his Cell phone.. but I was hanging up.. and I felt the Lord check me, to not call back... 
So that door might be closed.. that means God has another plan, a greater  yes, and is working EVERYTHING out for my good!!!!!

This afternoon God did an amazing thing... My Blood Pressure went to a PERFECT reading for the first time in I can not tell you how long... And briefly my heart rate did too...
Hey that is hope right there folks.. at its finest. 
God is in control.... He never gives us more than we can bear, even when it does feel like it.
He gives us a break before the next storm...
These storms are meant to teach us, draw us closer to HIM!!!

So after everyone felt comfortable to go to bed and leave me alone 
( having made me promise to come get them if I got feeling really bad again) 
The Lord gave me another answer to prayer... 
He helped me to work on some Bible Study homework for the
 "Believing GOD" study I am doing. 
Each days homework takes about an hour and I have not been able to do that...

 BUT GOD!!

GOD IS AMAZING!!!! 

Bottom line... We better know all is well between the Savior and us!!
And serve HIM our of love and adoration for who HE is, not for what HE does!!!!

He's still working on me, 
to make me what I ought to be,
took Him just a week to make the moon and the stars.......
How loving and patient He must be...
He's still working on me!!!


Listen to the Second verse ... That is my verse especially!!